Although the situation sucks, look at it like this: what kind of opportunity is it? What can I do to make it work for me?
Probably you can learn alot from it. Maybe its better you found out this way now than in a different way later. Use it to take a good hard look at yourself and your life and think about the future.
I don't think you will find many answers in your Z.
I guess this sounds pretty insensitive, but I believe it can help.